سه‌شنبه، شهریور ۰۵، ۱۳۹۲

We miss everyday life knowing that we are a failure in this country


our today email thread:

On Tue, Aug 27, 2013 at 5:14 PM, Sara wrote:
I miss going for a walk. I miss walking. I miss walking with my friends, aimlessly

From:  Matthew
Sent:  Tuesday, August 27, 2013 5:09 PM
To: Sara
Subject: Re: Re:

I miss going to Jazz concerts.
  
On Tue, Aug 27, 2013 at 5:07 PM, Sara wrote:
I miss reading newspapers' headlines and looking at magazines' covers on the street kiosks.

From:  Matthew
Sent: 
Tuesday, August 27, 2013 5:02 PM
To: Sara
Subject: Re: Re:

I miss looking out of my window and seeing normal people instead of gunmen. I miss seeing children playing.

On Tue, Aug 27, 2013 at 4:59 PM, Sara wrote:

I miss going to stand-up comedy shows.

From:  Matthew
Sent: Tuesday, August 27, 2013 4:56 PM
To: Sara
Subject: Re: Re:

I miss going to the cinema.

On Tue, Aug 27, 2013 at 4:54 PM, Sara wrote:
I miss avocado.

From:  Matthew
Sent: Tuesday, August 27, 2013 4:50 PM
To: Sara
Subject: Re: Re:

I don't think NGOs and contractors (the kind that carry out projects, not the fascists with sunglasses and guns) are so different anymore in Afghanistan.

On Tue, Aug 27, 2013 at 4:25 PM, Sara wrote:

I’m not giving more credit to  intention than result, but I’m saying if result is negative in both groups, let’s give credit to NGOs and not put them in one category with  army or private contractors.

From:  Matthew
Sent: Tuesday, August 27, 2013 4:12 PM
To: Sara
Subject: Re: Re:

What you say makes sense. To their credit, they believe in what they are doing.

On Tue, Aug 27, 2013 at 4:10 PM, Sara wrote:

You are being too cynical. You picture the reality even worse than what it is. Some of those NGOs genuinely believe in what they do, they think they are doing the right thing. Do you genuinely believe in what you do? 

And you are cynical about the status quo without  trying to change it.

From:  Matthew
Sent: Tuesday, August 27, 2013 4:00 PM
To: Sara
Subject: 

This has been a long day. This morning I interviewed NGOs who want to make a presentation at the meeting I chair on Thursdays. Why do foreign NGOs try so hard to  be sexy, instead of focusing on more important things?
I'm tired of Westerners working with local hip/artistic/genius musicians/grafitti artists/fashion designers who want money to create sustainable pashto hip hop albums about polio/establish an institute on accountability/teach rural Afghan women to make lingerie.

یکشنبه، شهریور ۰۳، ۱۳۹۲

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